the season of cheer

december has arrived.

i felt him this morning as the chill touch of his embrace creeped in through my sheets.

it was surprising that his arrival would be this sweet and breezy and cool.

and like no other year december's cheer has captured my heart.



and now that december is here, i can't wait for lattes,

hot cocoa,

more family loving

(well i'll give it my best shot)

and gifts of love.

a year ago i was afraid of the end

desperate

almost sad at myself because i couldnt live the moment

i was struggling to end

but i remember today how the promise of a great 2011 came to me

and i was so ready to take on the new year that i forgot to enjoy last december

i couldnt have with all the doubt, insecurities and frustrations of 300+ days

that i had lived as a woman unlike my real self.

but there's truly something special about this year

and what it has meant to me

and there's something special about this december

because although it signals the ending of an amazing, difficult, rewarding year

it also brings with it an air, a feel of the new dawn that awaits me

the minute 2012 arrives

and im ready to meet the new year

with its new challenges, sunny and rainy days

i will walk it confidently with

all the lessons learned, my new sense of appreciation for the beauty within

 and an attitude of healing as i search my heart

and come to my true identity as a woman

a woman of high value because of the cross

there's no better way to begin the end

than with a new found love and acceptance

for this woman

that i've just discovered inside of me

and im ready to receive and give the cheer of the season around me

as well as the season in my heart.

are you excited this december?