there's cool in my uncool

sometimes i struggle with being different

radical

odd

and although it's taken me long

ive learned to love myself the way the Lord intented me too

and it has not been easy

i wasn't always the girl with that body that guys in high school broke necks for

i've always had some thickness about me (yes, that's what they call it now)

and my hair wasn't always nice, curly and bouncy

yes, this is my natural hair, but in the past i really didn't know how to style it

{and by the looks of this picture, i still don't}

and i had a lot of negative comments from my family about my hair

they recommend it i should straigthen it cause that was a better choice

(they would think)

my immaturity and  low self-esteem

would cause me to give in

and i walked around feeling miserable

about myself

never feeling like a cutie or even a valuable thing

until jesus came into my life

and then i learned about true love

and all the emptiness inside, all the lack of value, all those desires to feel appreciated

Jesus came in and fulfill those needs

and then

years + trials later

i am my own person

still odd

still thick

but cuter ;)

and not because i now know how to style my hair and wear make-up correctly

but because over the years i have learned to appreciate myself

i have learned to dress to impress -- myself and to honor jesus while at it

before i thought about doing what others thought was fashionable or appropiate

but now i've grown up in the lord and i've learned to reflect who i am through what i wear

and honestly

my choices are not always popular

most of my friends don't necessarily agree with my thrift finds and odd colors

but i've learned to accept even their remarks and not feel hurt

because i have found a way to love the uncoolness about me

and accept it as my own beauty