Monday, July 18, 2011

oh no, not that again!!


when you are my age, it's hard to escape the "are you single?" question.
or the "so are you praying for someone?" question.
or even my dad's desperate chant about having grandkids.
"soon, dad" is not cuting it anymore.
and  although i really try not to think it about it, it finds a way to come out.

this weekend a group of girls celebrated a friend who is getting married this week.
a bachelorrette party if you may.
and well, in the group of about twelve ladies, i was the only single one.
{ill give you this pause to have your moment...}
ok.
so i wasnt too upset about it. really. i thought i would, but i felt pretty good.
content.

{enter your "yeah right's" and "blah blah blah's"}

you see some time ago i would've been feeling bad. desperate.
but these days, im pretty ok with being in this idle moment in terms of a significant person in my life.
i've never really had a lot of romance in my life to begin with,
but in the past i looked at it in the wrong perspective.
{i use the word past very loosely here}
a lot of you out there, have taught me a lot about patience and being still when it comes to a relationship.
and i want to do just that.
dont get me wrong, i do want to be married. i yearn for it. but im done wanting it for the wrong reasons.
and im done wanting to have it my way.
im looking at the bigger picture. achieving a greater purpose through that relationship.
and yeah, in the last months (weeks, perhaps) ive been learning and letting God take over that part of my life.
im surrendering my heart.
and while i do that, i am committed to using this time in service to God. pouring out my love for him through so many areas. youth groups. worship ministry. bible studies. discipleship.
and although waiting and being still means i put on hold my hopes of having my own place, decorating it, growing veggies and eventually having the cutest curly-haired kids, i find that it's worth waiting for.

image from 'yes but no'

7 comments:

  1. yes, oh yes. great post! it seems like we are riding the single-hood boat together. I relate a little bit too much with your post and I have come to the conclusion that before I start dating someone, I must date myself.

    ps: i can't wait until you come visit and we go on our little trip to the beach :)

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  2. Oi florzinha'
    Tudo bem??
    Vim fazer aquela velha visitinha e te deixar um 'xerinho' beeeeem grande ~
    \ô//

    @Haylla_bsb

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  3. I can totally relate. I think the best thing we single ladies can do is get out and enjoy our lives. There are so many opportunities open to us right now, and if we focus on embracing them all, each of us will find the right guy. Eventually.

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  4. So encouraging Jennifer! And I love that opening quote =D

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  5. @Brandi your comment is head on!

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  6. this is incredibly inspirational. while i'm not single, i look back at the time i was and wish i had appreciated it more. yes, it can be lonely, but the time, energy and love you have to expel towards others--especially doing all those incredible things you mentioned above--is such a blessing.

    "and although waiting and being still means i put on hold my hopes of having my own place, decorating it, growing veggies and eventually having the cutest curly-haired kids, i find that it's worth waiting for." --love that. what a beautiful faith you have!

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  7. "i yearn for it. but im done wanting it for the wrong reasons.
    and im done wanting to have it my way."
    wow, that's hard but SO beautiful.

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